A month ago I would not believe I could be writing that, but I realised that alcohol is bad for my emotional recovery.
I am already biased enough with all my past negative experiences that sit in my subconsciousness, and descreasing the activity of prefrontal cortex is the last thing I could wish to do when trying to keep sane despite them. In fact, any single getting tipsy allows the bad thoughts to come up more easily, and as the result those bad thoughts keep on marking the very same traces in my brain that I am trying to wipe out. Alcohol physiologically handicaps my ability to fight against my insanity.