Showing all posts tagged #friendship:
Emotional Intelligence - it was just the beginning
Posted on March 12th, 2023
So something occurred to me. I spent a big portion of my life learning to notice my emotions, to name them, to express them, describe them, analyse them, connect them, and understand them.
But in the end, this is such a tiny part of emotional intellig...
I can't reach out
Posted on June 14th, 2018
I can't reach out to people. I'm not reaching out not because I'm selfish and I don't care, but because I only have bad experiences with it. I am awaiting aggression and next rejection. My way of keeping people in my life is avoiding interactions with ...
Breaking the journaling routine
Posted on May 6th, 2018
I have been writing this blog for more than a year now. I put here all my discoveries or weird emotional experiences on a foggy way to something I at the time thought was recovery from CPTSD. I made however a major mistake: I gave the blog's address to...
Feeling that people have bad intentions towards me
Posted on April 16th, 2018
Okay, in the last year I've done a lot of work in the direction of knowing my emotions and trusting them, but here I am kind of sure that I'm having some cognitive filter: it the last days, after having received some criticism, I see people as being un...
Codependency is running (and ruining) my life!
Posted on April 1st, 2018
I have just come back from an unsuccessful skiing attempt. I couldn't do it. It was too hot and my jacket was too thick, I was boiling. I came back extremely angry that I couldn't go earlier, as I planned, when the weather was cooler, because a friend ...
Grateful for the right people
Posted on October 22nd, 2017
I have just spent an awesome weekend with people who I could just talk and talk and I was feeling understood, validated, interested in the topics they were speaking about, and almost re-parented. I spoke with an old married couple and it is unbelievabl...
Losing a friend?
Posted on October 12th, 2017
Okay I'm not even sure how it happened.
First moment when I felt something was wrong was when I asked my friend if she could bring me water from the shop next door as she was going to buy herself an ice cream right before we would leave and one person...
Vacation crisis
Posted on October 8th, 2017
Vacation in an amazing place with two best friends and I feel like shit. I wonder if before I learned to observe myself in a non-critical way I would even notice that I feel shitty, ie if I would be able to make such statement or would I just feel shit...
No more friendships that feel like charity
Posted on April 6th, 2017
Why have I been doing it to myself? Trying to be there for anyone who may need anything from me. It has exhausted me beyond measure. It would not cross my mind now. To offer friendship to someone who has exploited me in every possible way, just in case...
