Showing all posts tagged #habits:
Visiting Finland
Posted on August 14th, 2017
Definitely interesting to meet the people I used to hang out with when I lived here. I wrote once about avatars and categorizing people, about finding an equivalent of one person in another place, and this being a narcissistic trait of mine. Well maybe...
Smoking and emotional instability
Posted on February 19th, 2017
I have often read that smoking is bad for someone with borderline, just like any addictive drugs, as they apparently increase emotional instability. But at the same time smoking was such a reliable way of calming down. I even started asking myself if i...
Moving on
Posted on February 5th, 2017
Moving on after a breakup - I realised I am not able to do it. All I can do, and have been doing till now, is to convert the affection into hatred. Both self-hatred and hatred towards that person. I can only manipulate the ratio. That is the closest to...
Alcohol and getting better
Posted on February 2nd, 2017
A month ago I would not believe I could be writing that, but I realised that alcohol is bad for my emotional recovery.
I am already biased enough with all my past negative experiences that sit in my subconsciousness, and descreasing the activity of pr...
Vipassana
Posted on January 23rd, 2017
Vipassana mediation is a technique discovered by Buddha. I understand it as a way of deep self discovery on a subconscious level. There are 10 day rigorous courses all over the world when one can learn it. I have just completed one. I will not write th...
