Showing all posts tagged #narcissist:
Narcissist relationship hell
Posted on January 14th, 2019
No, despite the huge screw up from last year by a narcissist/sociopath, it just does not end. I thought I will never be tricked again. And now the last guy was a narcissist too, I have just uncovered him. After the confrontation he displayed all of the...
Relationships' Schredinger's cat explained
Posted on January 9th, 2019
Maybe as long as I freak out during an end of an abusive relationship, will I not be able to get into a normal relationship.
The same qualities which make me unable to leave an unhealthy relationship prevent me from having enough patience to separate ...
Beware of covert communication
Posted on January 1st, 2018
I recently started paying attention to something that I would call covert communication with other people. I start to believe that the occurrence of such communication is itself a red flag which tells that the other person is also personality disordere...
Losing a friend?
Posted on October 12th, 2017
Okay I'm not even sure how it happened.
First moment when I felt something was wrong was when I asked my friend if she could bring me water from the shop next door as she was going to buy herself an ice cream right before we would leave and one person...
Feeding off emotions
Posted on August 19th, 2017
Another narcissistic trait that I have observed in myself: I enjoy seeing people in strong emotional states. Whether the state is positive or negative does not really matter. As long as their emotional state does not put me in danger, of course.
Maybe...
My last relationship
Posted on July 30th, 2017
Emotionally unstable personality. And I say covert narcissist. Somehow I had such a strong feeling that I understand everything he's been going through. Everything sounded like taken from my own thought script. And why I wanted to sacrifice myself just...
Q2 Checkpoint
Posted on July 15th, 2017
Progress since the last checkpoint.
I have learned that:I have read about NLP (Neuro Linguistic Programming) and it is mind blowing. Have not actually learned it, but it is interesting. Also hypnosis and self affirmations fall under this category. It ...
Thought stopping and psychoactive drugs
Posted on May 10th, 2017
It works! The thought stopping of inner critic works! It was enough to read about it in the book and pay more attention to the now consolidated concept of the inner critic. I notice when it's about to speak (basically it's any time I feel bad mood sudd...
Why do women fall for bad boys
Posted on May 9th, 2017
Why do women fall for bad boys? Because they didn't have good fathers.
I have been focusing a lot on mindfulness recently and all I write below is not backed up by any research, psychological theory or any important name - it is coming solely from my...
Primal attraction
Posted on April 19th, 2017
RAW THOUGHTS
I am still going deeper into watching my inner world closely. I noticed something strange recently, looking at people trying to improvise a dance.
I realised I felt compulsive attraction to some people when I looked at their movements, bo...
Integrate not alienate
Posted on April 17th, 2017
It is a known phenomenon that borderlines often end up in relationships with narcissists. Yes that's what I read after my breakup and it was not helpful at all: to know that my suffering was to be predicted. That I'm just a part of the statistic. Some ...
The narcissist in me
Posted on April 16th, 2017
When I read the diagnostic criteria of narcissism I do not see it so clearly, but when I watch the videos about narcissism I find many of the mentioned characteristics in myself. I'm not even sure if they strictly belong to narcissism or maybe just to ...
'Borderline does not recover'
Posted on March 29th, 2017
I watched some more videos by the narcissist, Sam Vaknin, and he claims that "narcissists and borderlines do not recover". They can do the therapy to learn behavioral tricks in order to function better (this I agree with, that DBT potential is limited)...
How to recognise a narcissist
Posted on March 24th, 2017
I was watching a youtube video by Sam Vaknin, the famous narcissist / sociopath who is spreading the awareness about his disorder. He gave a very good advice on how to recognise a narcissist.
He said that there is an emerging phenomenon nowadays where...
Can a culture enable emotional disorders
Posted on March 23rd, 2017
It often makes me wonder: a country doing so well economically yet still such a high percentage of smokers. I don't have to look into the statistics, seeing people outside means seeing people smoking.
Smoking helps suppressing emotions. German culture...
Observing people - disconnected from their bodies
Posted on March 23rd, 2017
I think I'm not aware how acutely I am aware of how everyone around me feels (it's part of my "codependency training" as a kid). I have to separate myself from this overwhelming information to make it possible for myself to go through my day. I think t...
