Posted on June 16th, 2018
Okay well now it went full fledged. What happened: two things, and I'm still not sure which one triggered it. Or maybe it was even the combination of them.
First of all I was taking an improvised acting class where they told me to act angry and self d...
Posted on June 7th, 2018
Somewhere I heard that no matter where you start your recovery process, one change will automatically pull consecutive other changes.
I have made one substantial change I think: I trained my brain to stop the inner critic. When I first read about it I...
Posted on June 4th, 2018
I had this idea to spend my alone part of the trip doing only what my inner child wants to do (about what inner child means, pls refer to the Bradshaw's book). Since I've read the book I've been trying to get the idea about who and where my inner child...
Posted on May 9th, 2018
A colleague at work posted a link without reading the content, and other people in the chat, especially one person, immediately started making fun of him. But not in a friendly way, in a specifically putting down and irritated way.. I know this way, be...
Posted on April 16th, 2018
Okay, in the last year I've done a lot of work in the direction of knowing my emotions and trusting them, but here I am kind of sure that I'm having some cognitive filter: it the last days, after having received some criticism, I see people as being un...
Posted on March 26th, 2018
They say that the critical voices we hear in our heads come from our primary caregivers, and that those voices actually are what they've been telling us when we were really small. I don't normally use words to think (I don't use images either, and yes ...
Posted on February 8th, 2018
So I have it now, in its all power. The inner critic making me feel so bad that I would rather die than continue this. And since I don't think with words I have been trying to give this critic a voice, to make him express himself with words. But I just...
Posted on August 25th, 2017
Okay so I had a revelation today while playing drums - in my imagination I have my father standing behind me and saying "okayish", "now you screwed up", "ah couldn't you play less boring?!", "it's crucial to keep the rhythm and you can't even do that",...
Posted on August 6th, 2017
Okay, that's quite interesting now. Because of a possibility of being rejected I feel judged, ridiculed, repulsive, resentful and I have the urge to avoid anything that is connected in any way to that person and what happened. I feel like I want to sul...
Posted on May 15th, 2017
I think that now I start to get what schema therapy is about.
As an adult I often had that unresolved feeling of wanting someone to have said something in the past. To have said something when I was feeling bad, neglected or ridiculed by my parents. I...
Posted on May 10th, 2017
It works! The thought stopping of inner critic works! It was enough to read about it in the book and pay more attention to the now consolidated concept of the inner critic. I notice when it's about to speak (basically it's any time I feel bad mood sudd...
Posted on May 8th, 2017
Regarding the CPTSD Pete Walker's book, and the inner critic: I think that in some situations what I experience is more like an inner terrorist. It's not saying "you're useless, you should die", it's rather saying "and now I'm gonna kill you" with a ma...
Posted on May 7th, 2017
I think I'll stick to the terminology from the Pete Walker's book. I think participating in improv theater helps enormously to shrink the inner critic.
According to the book, the inner critic is the internal voice (or feeling in my case), saying how ...