Showing all posts tagged #fear:


Fear of abandonment

Posted on December 3rd, 2018

Fear of abandonment - was the undeniable symptom that made me consider BPD. Today it occurred to me that this fear is somewhat flat, somehow repetitive and predictable. And that the narration behind it has the very same voice, each time. And this voice...

Breakdown

Posted on November 11th, 2017

For some reason I just got another breakdown. A long lasting flashback. I am trying to track it back and I remember a moment of thinking "oh, remember the times of freaking out, it was so pleasant to dissociate and put on any mask that I feel like wear...

The fear of things being better

Posted on May 9th, 2017

Oh this is so primal that I have not seen it before, but indeed what hinders me from taking action to make my life better is the fear of things becoming better. It's the phenomena I have often read about but now I have to say that not only I understan...

How to identify what a bodily sensation means

Posted on May 4th, 2017

I had a therapeutic a session with a wise Polish woman and she gave me this amazing tool: how to find out what a certain body sensation means: relax, feel your breathdo the body scanfeel the sensationlet your body position itself in a way that follows ...

Why emotions are so scary

Posted on March 24th, 2017

I heard it somewhere recently and have thought about it for some time, and now that I am sure that it is true I want to write it. Emotions from the past seem so scary, because we were just children when we were first encountered them! I am writing he...

Observing children

Posted on February 22nd, 2017

Observing families with children often makes me pissed. I was often wondering why. Especially those moments when the kid is crying, shouting, hitting, pulling, and their parents just do nothing. I have always felt like I want to go to them and start sh...