Showing all posts tagged #flashback:
Flashbacks and the unfairness of the world
Posted on September 23rd, 2019
Back from another social battle. Yes it may sound dramatic to the outside, but why not to give it real names. It is a struggle, each time, to actually walk next to my colleagues not knowing what to talk about and yet stay alert enough so that I can res...
The blackout feeling
Posted on September 10th, 2018
I have identified what it means when I have this blackout feeling of not being able to focus or even think. I feel like I am totally stupid, not able to put my thoughts together, and all I want to do is give up and just curl up on the floor.
It is kin...
Massive flashback
Posted on June 16th, 2018
Okay well now it went full fledged. What happened: two things, and I'm still not sure which one triggered it. Or maybe it was even the combination of them.
First of all I was taking an improvised acting class where they told me to act angry and self d...
Emotional flashback: humiliation with no voice to defend myself
Posted on April 16th, 2018
Just recently a situation happened that very well resembled a traumatic situation from my childhood. I wasn't aware how traumatic it was until now. Someone wanted to help me and instead humiliated me: both back then and yesterday. As it often is with e...
Breakdown
Posted on November 11th, 2017
For some reason I just got another breakdown. A long lasting flashback. I am trying to track it back and I remember a moment of thinking "oh, remember the times of freaking out, it was so pleasant to dissociate and put on any mask that I feel like wear...
Losing a friend?
Posted on October 12th, 2017
Okay I'm not even sure how it happened.
First moment when I felt something was wrong was when I asked my friend if she could bring me water from the shop next door as she was going to buy herself an ice cream right before we would leave and one person...
