One month went by, the recovery time is getting longer than the dating time. I'm not surprised. I'm angry but this time more at myself. That I still let them trick me. Of course, if I have unlimited faith in humans, of course anyone will be able to exp...

Funny thing happened last night. I was dreaming that I was in my typical relationship situation when I get involved and he says that he does not wanna commit right now. In this dream I exactly felt my automatic reaction: "omg, I screwed up, I should tr...

It is a known phenomenon that borderlines often end up in relationships with narcissists. Yes that's what I read after my breakup and it was not helpful at all: to know that my suffering was to be predicted. That I'm just a part of the statistic. Some ...

Moving on after a breakup - I realised I am not able to do it. All I can do, and have been doing till now, is to convert the affection into hatred. Both self-hatred and hatred towards that person. I can only manipulate the ratio. That is the closest to...