Again, a regression. I should make some statistics about how often they happen. And about what the frequency of them means. Today I feel this: there's something fundamentally broken about me. It's not about accessing suppressed emotions, or releasing ...

Moving on after a breakup - I realised I am not able to do it. All I can do, and have been doing till now, is to convert the affection into hatred. Both self-hatred and hatred towards that person. I can only manipulate the ratio. That is the closest to...