It often makes me wonder: a country doing so well economically yet still such a high percentage of smokers. I don't have to look into the statistics, seeing people outside means seeing people smoking.
Smoking helps suppressing emotions. German culture discourages having emotions, not just showing them, even having them. People seem to be paranoid about how they appear to others, maybe that's the reason? Or maybe these are just the problems of the whole western world?
People are not happy here. I wrote about how I can see how people feel. I see they're not happy. They live day by day just to die one day. I see narcissists on a daily basis. People said I am just "lucky" meeting that kind of people, or that I'm paranoid. Recently such bizarre possibility started occurring to me: what if I'm right? What if I simply see what others don't see? Over the entire course of my education I have been excelling as compared to others, I just got used to the thought that I'm simply weird.. but what if I'm weird because I see more than an average person does?
Maybe I'm delusional but I can't unsee what I see. Maybe it's the time to go with what I think is correct instead of surveying everyone around for the right answer? It's a fact that most people are stupid, why would I base my decisions on the opinion of the majority?
Dissociating is not enough anymore.