Up until the university I have been traumatized. During the university I had my short 3 years to shine, after which re-traumatization began. And like this, with each subsequent disappointment and abandonment I have been less and less of myself. More and more hiding inside, less and less trusting. In fact, many of those traumas still haunt me. I am just creating a facade, one after another. People say time will heal things. I still feel the pain from 10 years ago.
It is not normal that the time does not heal them, and it is not normal that all those therapies didn't help.