Okay I'm not even sure how it happened.
First moment when I felt something was wrong was when I asked my friend if she could bring me water from the shop next door as she was going to buy herself an ice cream right before we would leave and one person had to stay wait for the other friend to help her close the door. The answer for my question was an upset "No". I asked why no if she's going there anyway and we both cannot go and she said "because I can't carry water I don't have any bag". I said I would give her my backpack (it was all about carrying a 1 liter bottle for 200 meters) and her answer was she can't carry backpacks as they are uncomfortable (#entitlement). I was speechless. I turned around and said that in such case I really need water for the trip so I'll buy myself and she was forced to stay to close the door. When we met at the bus stop she asked if I got an ice cream for her, I said "no because I didn't know which one you want" and she answered it's correct I didn't buy since she couldn't eat ice cream on the bus anyway (#neverwrong).
Second time was when we ate in a restaurant later that day. She was sitting with that disgusted angry face I asked if she's upset with our conversation she answered that no, but that "it is just such typical subject for women to talk about, and I simply find it boring" (#passiveaggressive) with disgust. And at that moment that was it. Emotional flashback. Through my last relationship to the feeling of inadequacy and my father not being able to accept that I'm a girl. And next my parents not having wanted a child at all. I have not had such a bad flashbak for a long time, it took almost whole day. The worst thing is after we came to our accommodation I told my friend that I'm feeling quite bad to which she replied happily "I'm going to the beach ciao!" (she got her #narcissisticsupply).
One thing for sure this is not my friend. She is only nice to me when she needs something. Oh she just entered the room and asked the other friend if she should buy her water before going to the bus stop! (#triangularion). Unbelievable. Since the other friend agreed to go with her to the hike she has not said a single word to me (#objectification).
Triangulation. Sulking. Passive aggression. Gas lighting. Selective lack of empathy. Projection. The thing I'm worried the most is that when I tried to speak about how her behaviour hurts me she immediately blamed me for speaking things about her to other people behind her back. I didn't do that. She refused to name the people I supposedly spoke to. This can only mean that she will do it if she doesn't like my behaviour (#projection). So, gray rock. "I'm just too tired to meet you". "This trip is too expensive for me to go". "I have important task at work and I cannot do other things". Let's just do this till she finds other people to suck.
And here's a physical picture of what I'm talking about: almost full coffee of my codependentish friend left behind. She didn't even feel the right to finish her coffee.
I am I paranoid or am I getting my sanity back? I wish I knew.