A music concert provoked some thoughts on the end.
Love: why should I settle with the bare minimum? I'm really sensitive and I would be realised if I could find someone to reciprocate this. Someone who would be equally passionate as me. People always suggest that I'm not lucky in love as I must be too picky. Fuck that! The know SHIT! It's like with the job. I had a shitty job and some people were telling me to appreciate what I have as others have worse. I gathered the courage and I found a much better job with almost no effort. Why settle for less when less makes me unhappy? So simple, yet so many life's paths I needed to understand it. There's this saying that the worst thing to wish for someone is that "I wish you had an awesome idea and no one to listen to you". That's basically the story of my life. Always holding myself back. Pretending I'm fine and laid back when I have 1000 thoughts in my head. Pretending I'm happy with what I get while I secretly hate it. I have even signed up for Bachelor studies being on 3rd year of Master's programme. I was wondering why I'm again among people below my level. Later I did a second Master and no PhD, as I thought I'm not allowed to have a PhD. WHAT THE FUCK?! If I won a lottery and they announced my name I would keep quiet as I would think it's another person with my name that won. When will this end?
No compromise. No more compromise. I want to get what I want, not what others want me to get.