I don't know if it is a normal stage in codependency recovery, but I find myself feeling sick of other people using me. Using me for feeding their egos, their sick phantasies, their assumption of my motives. Recently I feel as if everyone was trying to tell me what I feel and what I think. And when I show them that it is damaging me, they turn the situation around and behave as if nothing happened.
I am currently entangled in several toxic situations. It is scary. I am pretty, so for sure if I talk with a guy I am flirting with him. Of course every guy who talks with me is hitting on me. I recently broke up so for sure I am looking for a boyfriend. I am guilty that someone got a crush on me as of course I provoked it to have my ego stroked after recent breakup. I am a woman in IT so for sure I am trying to prove myself. I say what I think and I am called selfish or prejudiced. I am trying to be nice and I am called manipulative. I say I don't like something and I am called narrow-minded. People are saying so many bad things about me recently, and they say it directly to me. It feels like they have been collecting those buckets of shit about me and suddenly all of them decided to pour it on me, all at the same time.
Oh wait... actually it is a stage in codependency recovery! And what, is it like a few months now since I started, so it matches the timeline, roughly.
I am however done with serving others, let them go fuck themselves.