What I have learned:
  • I have learned to better distinguish between the three situations:
    • someone's behavior is triggering me - means I have to do some visualization exercise later to find out why
    • someone is actively trying to trigger me - means I have to tell them off or leave their company (assert my boundaries)
    • my perception is skewed - means I have to bend my mind to bring it closer to the more helpful perception, and exercise the new perspective over and over again
  • There are people who are dangerous and how to recognize them; it is not always either misunderstanding or my fault, there are people who actually do want bad for others; I leaned about covert-aggressive people
  • There are amazing people who I can talk with hours and feel like home with them
  • Some people can be trusted, but not all people
  • I learned to let go of the people who are hurting me
  • I learned there is a totally new layer of human interactions that I was not aware before
  • I learned about Asperger's and while I do not believe I have it, it widened my perspective on how the brain wiring can affect the behaviors and perceptions, and gave ideas on how to help myself feel better with my brain
What I started doing:
  • I increased the amount of improv theater in my life
  • I started a new job
  • I started to learn to accept compliments and sympathy of other people
  • I let myself be angry and I started telling people when they piss me off
What I stopped doing:
  • I stopped constantly pondering on what I may have done wrong - improv has helped in it
  • I stopped putting so great importance on whether someone is angry at me
And a new category - what changed in my life:
  • I am much less stressed, feels like I am wrapped in some sort of soft fabric
  • I see world a bit different, less hostile
  • Got some serious conflicts with some friends which I do not plan to solve at any cost like I would before
  • I started feeling good about myself more often than bad