I'm feeling sad. Slowly starting to understand that my state does not have as much to do with my upbringing but my sensitivity. It's kind of bringing me down. I start to understand how much I don't know, and how much I can't do. I feel like I'm sitting in a filthy place watching colorful American life on the TV screen, thinking it's not for me, and never will be. Very powerless.
Will I win this race against time? I feel I'm falling too much behind. Just want to numb myself.