Okay so in the end something has changed in the way I perceive other people in comparison to the last year. I wrote before about emotions inside out on stage. I was just watching a concert of Beyoncé on the trip in a TV screen and her making the contact with the public, and suddenly I GOT IT! Out of the sequence of moves, words and face expressions I suddenly got the emotional meaning, the intention, the mood, her personality, the connection. I could not see it before! All I saw till now was the sequences which I've always considered pretty lame and superficial. It's like seeing another layer of meaning that so far I was missing completely, like an alien visiting planet Earth. I next saw a video of Whitney Houston singing and I had to cry, same. Next Michael Jackson, and again: I got how they got to the idea of interleaving the story video with him singing. Before I thought they just wanted to give more screen time to the actual musician to advertise him, but now I got that it was the way of expressing that it's the singer speaking to the little boy in the story.

I see connections that I would never think of before. It feels as if I was learning how to be a human.