I've realised that the fact that when I was younger I felt more hopeful and excited about the future than I am now, may have been caused by the physical sensations in the body connected to it growing rather than deteriorating. Funny. But that buzzing feeling inside that is now missing was probably that. I just spontaneously remembered that feeling today. And I realised that it was very physical indeed. And it felt a bit like being out of control. Like things go and develop its own way and this is what was creating this excitement feeling perhaps. I think it stopped around the age of 30. And it's replaced by another feeling, perhaps of things getting broken and there appears a need to preserve. A wish to go slower, more carefully, to save.
And.. is it possible that that's the core reason of why people change their priorities in certain age or are afraid of becoming lifeless, unexcited, depressed? How much impact would it have on particular people of their body was genetically following a path that is a bit off?