"You have a good life", said the waiter at a restaurant. I asked what he meant, he said "well just look at yourself". Yes.. I wonder what he would say if one day he heard that this beautiful smiling successful woman who could not ask for anything else in life committed a suicide.
People assume so many things.
Once someone told me I could have any man I wanted. I think many people think like this. What if they knew that i am lonely as fuck and could never find someone who could stay with me and not fuck me up.
What if I said that I could probably roughly count how many times I had sex in my life, and soon I will consider myself too old to start a family.
People assume so many things.
I guess I have to play that game. I need to learn what to do to make them assume the correct thing. How to appear in the way I want them to see me, not in the way I feel. First I am young and single and a normal guy will not approach me as he will think that such woman is for sure taken, next I will be old and a normal guy will not approach me as he will think that if such woman is alone there must be something fundamentally wrong with her.
People assume so many things.
I am either taken and if I am not taken then I am too conceited and picky. There is no grayscale, only those 2 extremes that people see. In none of them can I find a normal person to be with. Serious people don't take me seriously and the ones who approach me are not serious.
I'm a nature's joke.
Well, such a negative post today. I have to learn to deal with the above thoughts, somehow.