Games I play
Posted on December 12th, 2016
I have been thinking about my self image a lot recently.
I was recently with some people and I imagined what would happen if my boyfriend showed up out of the blue. I was a bit tired which helped me in a realisation that before I could even react to s...
Codependency
Posted on December 10th, 2016
Brilliant explanation https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mc3gRqRPlJU. I heard that word often but did not know its meaning. What really struck me:
You feel responsible for the other person's happiness. You are constantly giving advice to your close ones...
Anger and withdrawal
Posted on December 10th, 2016
Part of DBT (Dialectical Behavior Therapy) is learning about the core emotions and their functions, so that later one is able to spot a malfunction. It makes you feel very stupid at the beginning, when the therapist asks you to explain what is fear, wh...
Having Borderline without having been abused
Posted on December 5th, 2016
Part of my life I thought I cannot have Borderline as I have not been abused as a kid. Another part of my life I thought that I am a very special case of Bordeline that developed without child abuse. And only recently, at the occasion of educating myse...
False self
Posted on December 5th, 2016
I have read relatively a lot about the mechanism of developing false self recently, which is normally happening to children as the effect of an abuse. But I could not get my head around it. When I thought about my "self", the term "false" seemed to go ...
'Interaktives Skillstraining für Borderline-Patienten'
Posted on December 3rd, 2016
I bought the book. It is in German. I don't really speak German but I'm learning. It is always a bad idea to try to accomplish two tough things at once, but hey why not.
Beating anxiety
Posted on December 3rd, 2016
Anxiety is the biggest monster I have to deal with. Or rather one that i have not figured out how to deal with at all :( I have been thinking about it recently, also reading the section about it in the book..
.. and something started to emerge, just a...
On medication and BPD
Posted on December 3rd, 2016
I have been on SSRIs, standard dosage, for last 3 years. I stopped it a month ago. I am sure that the individual experiences can vary, and this is just my personal opinion, and I am not a doctor by any chance, but what I noticed is that:
This medicati...
Self compassion
Posted on December 3rd, 2016
At the beginning of the therapy we said that it makes no sense to dig in the past, and it's better to focus on the now. Now we are changing the strategy, as in my impression the deep negative feelings and false identity cannot be fixed just with skills...
Back at the start
Posted on December 3rd, 2016
Some months I ago I really started thinking that I am finally beating this. For the first time I felt successful at the therapy, getting a grip on the DBT skills I was learning, being cheered by my therapist. I found a boyfriend who did not run away fr...
